I read something that scared me a little. Someone on a social media platform said: "I’m occasionally reminded that brevity is a part of kindness, politeness, civility. I can be saying all the right things but if I overwhelm someone with a huge block of text or long speech those words can feel invasive, entitled, draining."
I don't know whether or not this describes a common attitude. If it does, then I am dismayed. I can be overtalkative. This is common in people like me who are on the autism spectrum. My social anxiety is related to the social difficulties my autism creates. The above quote seems to confirm my fears that listening to me can be draining. And it seems to support the idea that autistic people need to be quieter. My talkativeness demonstrates interest, fondness, even trust. I resent the implication that the way I am naturally seems invasive, entitled, or unkind. That I seem uncivil on the rare occasion that I am comfortable enough to share with someone. But maybe it's true.
In my opinion, many people don't elucidate enough. Brevity feels more often like dissmissiveness. Because I have a neurodevelopmental disorder, I need clear, direct, and thorough explanations or I become confused. Embarrassingly, I need people to take their time and to be understanding. But then perhaps many people are better at operating with less.
I am socially disabled. I have no natural inclination to socialize but I have to in order to get things that I want. And when I do I usually guess incorrectly what I should expect from others. I'm terrified that people are judgmental. That they will get the wrong impression because of their preconceived notions. That the World Outside is hostile toward people like me until we prove ourselves worthy of basic human considerations like patience. The above quote seems to confirm that fear. I have tried to learn to be brief but I could do better. I want to. It's a constant struggle. Because there is no end in sight to the pressure from the NT community on people with ASDs to be more normal. To please them thus standing before prejudice.
I don't know whether or not this describes a common attitude. If it does, then I am dismayed. I can be overtalkative. This is common in people like me who are on the autism spectrum. My social anxiety is related to the social difficulties my autism creates. The above quote seems to confirm my fears that listening to me can be draining. And it seems to support the idea that autistic people need to be quieter. My talkativeness demonstrates interest, fondness, even trust. I resent the implication that the way I am naturally seems invasive, entitled, or unkind. That I seem uncivil on the rare occasion that I am comfortable enough to share with someone. But maybe it's true.
In my opinion, many people don't elucidate enough. Brevity feels more often like dissmissiveness. Because I have a neurodevelopmental disorder, I need clear, direct, and thorough explanations or I become confused. Embarrassingly, I need people to take their time and to be understanding. But then perhaps many people are better at operating with less.
I am socially disabled. I have no natural inclination to socialize but I have to in order to get things that I want. And when I do I usually guess incorrectly what I should expect from others. I'm terrified that people are judgmental. That they will get the wrong impression because of their preconceived notions. That the World Outside is hostile toward people like me until we prove ourselves worthy of basic human considerations like patience. The above quote seems to confirm that fear. I have tried to learn to be brief but I could do better. I want to. It's a constant struggle. Because there is no end in sight to the pressure from the NT community on people with ASDs to be more normal. To please them thus standing before prejudice.
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